Thankful Thursday: Will Will, my little man

Today Will started Kindergarten. I'll give you a moment to pause, and take a deep breath over the shock of this happening. Oh, wait, that's me. How in the world did my newborn baby who I so vividly recall bringing home from the hospital like 5 minutes ago get big enough to go to Kindergarten?!! Big school!! This was a big day for both of us, one I've been semi-dreading for awhile, but always kept my spirits up because I didn't want to displace my feelings on Will and make him scared of school. He was such a big boy, going right into class, making himself at home, telling me bye with no problem. I love my little man and am so proud of him and his independent spirit. Would've been nice if he lingered just a little, though. A brief I love you mommy and a big hug. But it could've been worse. I am so so thankful for the time I've had and pray he carries the lessons we've tried to instill as he goes out into the world.

I tried to think outside the 'chalkboard sign' box and
came up with this idea for his sign- two items that
just say "school"!

Will,

You may not remember this day as you get older, but I probably always will. Today, August 1st, 2013, was your first day of Kindergarten. First day in a "big school" classroom. We awoke to a foggy, moderately warm, but humid day. You got out of bed before your alarm went off and came downstairs. 

You said, "sorry I slept so long, mom" to which I replied, "oh, it's early, hon, you didn't sleep long at all." "Oh, so I have time to go back to sleep?" "Sure. You have a few minutes." 

But you didn't go back to sleep; you got dressed in the outfit we picked out last night and came back downstairs ready for your big day! After breakfast-- just the two of us (you had a waffle with jelly, I had oatmeal)-- I had to feed your brother and get your sister out of bed. Then it was picture time! We went outside and took lots of photos to commemorate your first day. I'm not sure how many times you asked if it was time to go, but soon after pictures, you and I hopped in the car and headed to school.

School starts at 8:00 so we left at 7:30, unsure how bad traffic would be. We parked across the street and used the crosswalk. You held my hand most of the way. I took more pictures when we got to class- one with your teacher and several at your desk after dropping off your backpack and snack in their designated places. After a few minutes, I asked if you were okay. You were. So I told you I was leaving and you said okay. With a kiss, I love you and be good, I left. I stood in the hallway and watched you a little bit- you were already talking to the boy at your table, making friends no doubt. I got you to wave at me one more time then was on my way. 

At home I gave extra hugs and kisses to your siblings, as if willing them to stay little forever. I kept busy with them and around the house distracting myself from missing you so much. Many thanks to your daddy for staying with the littles so I could bring my big boy to Kindergarten. I would've liked all of us to go, but that didn't work out. 

I had to wait in a long line to pick you up but we were both excited to finally see each other and you were excited to tell me all about your day of touring the school and making new friends. You even told me you missed me which made my heart smile, if that were possible.

Will, I am thankful you're my son and proud of the boy you're growing up to be. And I am so very thankful for the past five years I've had with you- four of which I was blessed to be home with you. For about 18 months it was just you and me- spending our days dressing up, playing with cars, making forts, going to the park, pool & play dates. We made cookies, played in the rain and went to the library. After your siblings joined our family, we didn't have as much mommy & Will time, but we all played together. This is time I can never get back and memories I will always cherish. I'm just so thankful for our time together. And it's not over! Just different now. Our lives have changed-- you've left the innocent, fun loving, going here and there, stay in pajamas all day, very-little-responsibility part of your childhood and entered the school age years. Still innocent and fun loving hopefully, but more responsibility. I'm excited about what lies ahead and grateful for the time we've had. Thank you, Will, for being mine; I'm so glad God entrusted me to be your mommy.  I love you!!!